Either the person you are now is fake or the person I used to know was fake... either way its breaking my heart.
no one to talk to that understands.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
Why I Started...
Starting college was very exciting to me and I was having a great time up until about a month ago... College came with many stressers but I thought I had it all figured out and avoided those things that the average college student had to deal with.
To make a long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend of a year for someone new. That story comes with a handful of its own complicated additions but I don't like to talk about them.
The person that came into my life as the someone new is absolutely amazing. I am in love with him and I truly believe he is the one. Unfortunately a month ago I was not treating him how he deserved to be treated. We argued constantly and I was becoming difficult to communicate with- he couldn't take it anymore and broke up with me. I was not really expecting this break up and it ruined me. Since then I have been depressed. This guy was the only person that made me happy and the only person I wanted in my life. I wanted him 24/7 no matter what I was doing I was thinking about him. ( I hate how childish this whole things sounds but I am undoubtedly head over heels in love... and no one will ever read this :p) The last two weeks have been full of my countless attempts to get him back. I don't really have much control over whether he wants me or not but I am trying to do everything I can.
The whole reason I decided to start blogging is because I don't really have anyone to talk to. I dont have anyone with an unbiased opinion and I don't have anyone there to just listen. I am at my breaking point right now and the only thing I can do is cry. Lay in my bed in cry. I have no one here to tell me it will be okay and I have no one holding me in their arms telling me they love me no matter what anymore... I just want everything to be back the way it was.... I can only hope that things will work out.
To make a long story short, I broke up with my boyfriend of a year for someone new. That story comes with a handful of its own complicated additions but I don't like to talk about them.
The person that came into my life as the someone new is absolutely amazing. I am in love with him and I truly believe he is the one. Unfortunately a month ago I was not treating him how he deserved to be treated. We argued constantly and I was becoming difficult to communicate with- he couldn't take it anymore and broke up with me. I was not really expecting this break up and it ruined me. Since then I have been depressed. This guy was the only person that made me happy and the only person I wanted in my life. I wanted him 24/7 no matter what I was doing I was thinking about him. ( I hate how childish this whole things sounds but I am undoubtedly head over heels in love... and no one will ever read this :p) The last two weeks have been full of my countless attempts to get him back. I don't really have much control over whether he wants me or not but I am trying to do everything I can.
The whole reason I decided to start blogging is because I don't really have anyone to talk to. I dont have anyone with an unbiased opinion and I don't have anyone there to just listen. I am at my breaking point right now and the only thing I can do is cry. Lay in my bed in cry. I have no one here to tell me it will be okay and I have no one holding me in their arms telling me they love me no matter what anymore... I just want everything to be back the way it was.... I can only hope that things will work out.
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